End of school, career search, and most important…

17 01 2012

A WEDDING OF COURSE!!!!! A couple of months ago Emily asked why I stopped posting on my blog. I’m not really sure I answered. Blogging for me is a form of release. A setting free of words or ideas trapped in the mind of a busy college student. Speaking words is so easy for people. Many times our words are not kept in check or even recorded. Sure, when we say something really mean or rude to someone it may stick longer. How many words do we speak that become lost in eternal nothingness. I could go on about how many words we speak a day, but how many of our words are taken to heart, or repeated by others? Are we really listened to or are we just speaking to avoid silence.

Positive or negative, I’m sure you can remember a few things that people have said to you over the course of the day. I vividly remember the first time Emily told me that she loved me, or her saying yes when I popped that “oh so infamous” question. It was an excited, “I can’t believe this is actually happening” kind of response. I can still hear the slight trickle of fear coming from her mouth when she came over to my house for the first time and asked,”Do you have a dog?”.  I remember her talking about her family and friends. I remember being told I was mean in High School, I also remember being told I was really nice. We remember encouragement and ridicule, love and hate. Writing down words is a way to capture them, to hold on to them, to throw a lasso around them and corral them into a more permanent storage location. What have you said today that is worth writing down? What have you told someone that they will remember for years to come? Will they adore you for it? Will they resent you for it?

I guess I haven’t discussed much of the title yet have I? Well it is pretty much all there. I’m very excited! I’ll be finishing RIT on February 29th. Then, God-willing, I’ll be starting a new career and moving into a new apartment. And June 9th… I’m getting married!! To Emily Masi, my beautiful bride. With a heart of gold and the mind of a life loving, God-fearing, romantic, endearing and encouraging free-spirit. AMAZING!!!

Oh, more words to remember, I saw a friend the other day that I hadn’t seen in a long time. When I knew him, I didn’t think he was much of a deep person. Ha gave me some advice that I definitely plan to put to use. He told me, “On your wedding day, take five minutes, pull Emily aside, step outside and really use that time for yourselves. Enjoy the fact that it’s your wedding day. Be with each other. You’ve worked hard for it.” even now I just want to take five minutes and look how far we’ve come and how close we are…. What a blissful place. Write some things down. You’ll be surprised what a pen and a piece of paper can remember.





The Birthday Girl!!!

23 08 2010

Hip hip hooray!!! Emily’s 21st birthday is today!! It only took me 18 years to find the perfect girl and now I get to celebrate her birthday today!!! But today she isn’t turning 21 years old… She is turning 21 years young. We’ve learned so much about each other in these past couple years and I’m so excited to learn more and more with each day to come!!

I’ve learned that she’s got a great personality, fun-loving and joyful. She likes to joke around and she’s got this smile that makes me feel warm inside. She’s also a mischievous woman, stealing my car with her friends, shooting me (with a nerf gun), pushing me in the snow, pushing me in the pool, throwing leaves at me, eating food off my plate (oh wait that’s something I do to her), “playing” with my flash drives ;-) , putting ketchup in my mouth. I very thankful for the girl God has blessed me with. She looks out for me and cares for me so much!! When I am about to do something dangerous she reminds me that I should think about what I’m doing before I do it. Like standing on furniture with wheels, driving my car, drinking water from certain places, sliding on ice, using sharp instruments, lifting heavy things, running around in the dark, and climbing large rock formations out west. She does love me, and she loves me so well. She is also a woman of vocabulary. The number of words she knows is at least 2 times larger than the number of words I know. A deal shopper, She knows how to find deals. Which is great because I’m not the best shopper.

One of the things I love the most is how she encourages me. In so many areas she helps me to aspire to do my best and excel. And when I don’t she tells me that I can do better next time. When I don’t think i can she encourages me to try. She encourages me that God real and very faithful. She encourages me to have and build relationships with people. She shows me how to live confidently but also keeps my head from getting too big. And most of all, she tells me that she loves me.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY EMILY!! You’re my girl and you deserve the best. I LOVE YOU!!!





The first piece of music on here

26 05 2010

It is slightly ironic that the web address is jtkacousticrememdy and there isn’t any music huh? well I just heard the song “Break Even” by The Script. I love the beat but I looked up the words and they are all about heartbreak and sadness. I decided to change them up. My version is first and then I’ll put their lyrics.


We’re still alive but we’re barely breathin’

We prayed to a God that we believe in

Cause we got some time and now some freedom

Cause while my heart beats no it won’t be leavin


On the best days my heart just might burst

I’m the kind of guy who’s gonna put her first

When I’m nice and close she’s no trouble sleepin’

Cause while my heart beats no it won’t be leavin’, leavin’ no


What am I supposed to do cause the best part of me is always you

What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up that you’re okay

I’m falling to pieces

I’m falling to pieces


We got this love and took to the train

I took your bag and had lots to gain

Now I’m trying to make sense of what little remains

Cause we stepped on board and now it’s aflame


We’re still alive but we’re barely breathin’

We prayed to a God that we believe in

Cause we got some time and now some freedom

Cause while my heart beats no it won’t be leavin

No it won’t leave, no it won’t be leavin, no


What am I supposed to do cause the best part of me is always you

What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up that you’re okay

I’m falling to pieces

I’m falling to pieces

I’m so glad you’re okay

I’m so glad you’re okay

THEIR LYRICS:

I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in
Coz I got time while she got freedom
Coz when a heart breaks no it don’t break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that’s gonna put her first
While I’m wide awake she’s no trouble sleeping
Coz when a heart breaks no it don’t break even, even no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up and you’re OK?
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop me bleeding
Coz she’s moved on while I’m still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don’t break even, even, no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up and you’re OK?
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces
I’m falling to pieces

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I’m trying to make sense of what little remains
Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name

I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in
Coz I got time while she got freedom
Coz when a heart breaks, no it don’t break–
No it don’t break, no it don’t break even, no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up and you’re OK?
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces, yeah
I’m falling to pieces
I’m falling to pieces





Why Fear?

20 03 2010

So many things cause fear in this world. Death, spiders, life threatening injuries, terminal illness, monsters, loss… But why? Some fear is healthy, most fear is cancerous. It spreads causing us to be hampered and preventing us from sharing joy and doing God’s will. Healthy fear isn’t really fear at all… that is what it feels like but in actuality it should be a level of respect. For example, some people (including me) fear electrocution. It would be silly not to use light bulbs but if we were so scared of electricity some of us wouldn’t plug them in. We would sit in the dark with our fear. But what we should realize is that electricity is a force to be reckoned with and we should respect it.

Similarly a fear of God is not a fear that He could strike you with a lightning bolt anytime He wishes. A fear of God is realizing that He can do that if He wanted to, but respecting Him and His ways will allow us to understand that God won’t just decide to strike us with a lightning bolt. By respecting God and His authority we are enabled to carry out His will for our lives and we will be enabled by a healthy fear of His power.

Fearing disease and terminal illness is a very debilitating fear. Why do we worry about it so much? We need to live our lives unbarricaded. If we don’t know if we have an illness we shouldn’t fear having it. Fearing these things brings worry and un-needed stress into our lives. We can’t fear that these things will cause loss. If we put our trust in God’s will we can have faith that He will work all things together for good for those that love Him.

These things which cause so much fear often are rooted in a fear of loss. Loss of someone you love, of love’s very presence in your life, of ability, of mind. We can’t fear these things! For every second we spend thinking about the things we might lose, we could be spending that same second enjoying those same things. You see?!?! It can cause us to lose these things and all the time we could spend with them.

Don’t fear. GO BOLDLY!!!





Where my Emmy be?

15 03 2010

I took that line from a movie my sister used to watch incesantly. The name is different in the original quote. That would give it away thoughif I told you the original name. I like it better this way anyway. Can you guess why? lol. kudos to anyone who can guess the movie. It’s disney.

Truly though, I do miss my Emily. Emily left me… for about a week to take a family vacation to florida!!! I had you for a second didn’t I? While she is getting a nice tan I’m here in good old brockport holding down the fort. It sounds like they’ve had a lot of fun down there. They’ve gone biking along the beach, gone swimming, eaten alligator (almost everybody), and even more things which I don’t remember. She really is a beautiful girl!! I love her so much!!

Something I don’t understand is self pity. Well, allow me to re-phrase that, I do understand self pity, it is so worthless though. What I don’t understand is people who pity themselves and then don’t let anyone in to help them out of their rut. Is it a fear of happiness, or a fear of responsibility? Pastor Mark spoke on this at church on sunday. His sermon title was, “Do You Want To Be Healed?”. “Well… duh!” might be the first reaction out of our mouths. Of course we think we want to be healed of sickness and infirmity. But what about the things we recieve because of our sickness. For those who self pity themselves and try to make others miserable they just don’t want to give up. “If I don’t lick my wounds who will?” Many think that they need to look out for number one, if they aren’thappy no one should be happy. To those on the outside it becomes confusing. You try to show them love but is that enabling their self pity? They are recieving all the love being given but not having to give any love in return. They haven’t accepted that responsibility. They need to release their internal wounds and accept healing and forgiveness. With the receving of healing they can move on with their lives. Responsibility is not a bad thing. It enables a person to go place and to do things God has willed for them to do. Shake’em up a little. Show them they can be healed, show them God has a plan, encourage them that their life has more meaning than the negative!!! IT IS SO!!!





The Beauty and Poetry of Scripture

15 12 2009

Yes it is 3:00 AM but I had lots of homework and this is what busy college students do. Anyway, I finished my work and I was ready to go to bed, but I decided I’d read my bible chapters for today. I was reading Matthew 3 and 4. I was reading, trying to comprehend what God was saying to me. Matthew 3 rolls by talking about John the baptist and the pharisees and the light coming down from heaven like a dove. Then God saying that this is His Son with whom He is well pleased. I am by no means putting this scripture down but, I had read it before and it wasn’t speaking or popping out to me. I then continued on to chapter 4 and kept reading. I found some underlines from the last time I read it. I had underlined verse 7, “It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’” That is really good. I gotta remember that. I moved on, still reading… waiting… anticipating.

Then I read verse 16. Yeah it is another verse, not words of Jesus, but words of God through the prophet Isaiah, “The people living in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of the shadow of death, a light has dawned.” Wow. That was it. Those words popped out of the paged and slapped me in the face. Not painfully but majestically. How poetic the second part of verse 16 is, “…on those living in the land of the shadow of death, a light has dawned.” When I read those words itjust took my breath away. I’d read that verse dozens of times (not because I’ve read the bible dozens of times, but because I’ve started reading the bible in Matthew, dozens of times) and not once did it seem so amazing. Scripture is so poetic and incredible…





Missouri to Texas in one day

23 06 2009

Ahh personal reflections to a family trip. Today was EXHAUSTING!!!! We drove from our KOA in Missouri to this Best Western in Texas. It was a long day but we made it. One more long exhausting day and then we will be in the fun zone. In other words we will be seeing sights like the grand canyon and Salt Lake city. Exciting Stuff. I know people say that Ohio is flat but Oklahoma. Is there anything in Oklahoma. We just drove right through it today. I think we only stopped three times for food souvenirs or gas. Well the family worked together very well today. Halfway through Oklahoma we realized we didn’t have a place to stay once we got to Texas. Gabe Lydia and Mom found a couple of hotels in the area. They called them all and found the best one for us. It was great.

I do miss Emily though. She started OSA today and it sounds like she is having fun. They played games all day today and got to know each other. She makes me so happy and I wish I was there to make her happy too.

Don’t forget to read the blog on what we’ve done.

www.kccrt.wordpress.com





Missouri to Texas in one day

23 06 2009

Ahh personal reflections to a family trip. Today was EXHAUSTING!!!! We drove from our KOA in Missouri to this Best Western in Texas. It was a long day but we made it. One more long exhausting day and then we will be in the fun zone. In other words we will be seeing sights like the grand canyon and Salt Lake city. Exciting Stuff. I know people say that Ohio is flat but Oklahoma. Is there anything in Oklahoma. We just drove right through it today. I think we only stopped three times for food souvenirs or gas. Well the family worked together very well today. Halfway through Oklahoma we realized we didn’t have a place to stay once we got to Texas. Gabe Lydia and Mom found a couple of hotels in the area. They called them all and found the best one for us. It was great.

I do miss Emily though. She started OSA today and it sounds like she is having fun. They played games all day today and got to know each other. She makes me so happy and I wish I was there to make her happy too.





KCCRT (Koelle Cross Country Road Trip) Post number 2

20 06 2009

Hmm… that large well of emotions, what exactly was I trying to describe. Well my first feeling was a feeling of Love and a confidence that that love will remain strong and grow stronger as the days pass by. The Love I speak of is first of my love for Emily. This also applies to the love I have for my family. And a strong love for God too. Another feeling I have is one of intense devotion. This definitely ties into the feeling of Love I have for Emily. I know that throughout this trip it is going to be hard not to see her for so long but I also know that through this we will cherish our relationship so much more. I do miss her a lot already.

Another feeling I’m exploring right now is the sense of adventure. Our family is headed out into the great unknown for two and a half weeks. It should be pretty interesting to see what happens. I can’t wait to explore the country with my family.

Something else that I’m going to be doing on this trip is, not shaving for as long as I can. We will see how long that lasts.

Driving Time Remaining 85:35





God’s Power = Infinite

1 06 2009

Well it has been forever since I wrote a post on here and I figured i might as well update people on my life and what God is doing with it. Well I’ll start with school. I GRADUATED!!!!! I graduated from MCC last thursday night. I walked the stage and I ended up with a GPA of 3.5948 close to what I wanted, I wanted a 3.6 but we’ll see what happens. I ended up with 4 A’s and one B+. Now all that is left is the ENR 259 trip to Austin, Texas. I’m pretty excited but I’m not excited that I have to leave Emily behind. RIT starts this fall and that is going to be a whirlwind. Semesters are 10 weeks instead of 15 and the breaks a shorter but more frequent. I’m excited!

Emily, my wonderful girlfriend. Knowing what God has for us is so powerful and we are so ready to take it on. In these past two weeks we have grown a lot. We’ve come to realize the power that God truly holds in our relationship. By releasing our relationship completely and wholly to him we lose nothing and gain everything. It seems that the more we open our relationship to God the more He gives it back to us. Our God is awesome God and He reigns.





My Life = Amazing

22 04 2009

God has a way of just showing up right when you need Him. He’s done it three times in the past week. He has been so incredible to me and Emily. Alright but before i tell you what He did for us I’ll tell you what has happened in the past month of my life. Well basically, as the title suggests, only amazingness. Emily and I have been dating for 6 months and 20 days now. MmmMMm. I know I’m going to marry her. Most of the older crew reading right now is saying, “no you don’t you have no clue whether you are going to marry her.” I have to tell you though, Everyday I spend with her I grow closer to her and the more undeniable it becomes that I am going to spend my life with her. Not too long ago someone told us that we made other people feel awkward and that we needed to slow down. They were right, about slowing down, and not showing our affection as much. It is amazing how God shows and tells you that you are right where you are supposed to be. On Saturday and on Sunday, two different occasions and two different people told us that they really loved our relationship and appreciated knowing that this kind of love still exists. People have said that to us before but I really felt as though it was a reaffirmation that God loves us too.

A lot actually happened on Saturday. Emily and I went to Amanda Elias’ track meet. She won the women’s 400 meter. Emily and I were so proud of her. So incredible. Afterwards we talked to her and congratulated her on her win. Amanda you did great! Of course I saw Kent there. Kent is quite an amazing person indeed. I love talking to him. I feel encouraged whenever I chat with him. He has a way of making you feel like the person God made you to be.

Saturday night was also quite incredible. The church’s friends, Pastor Larry and Carol Arrendas, came to be with us. That night they led an intercessory prayer meeting at the church. That was the most amazing prayer meeting I’ve been too. Except for the prayer meetings with music. We prayed over a new building and the youth in the church, college students and such. The second focus was something that Carol had on her heart for the church. She wanted to pray for all the singles. So they called them all up and then all the married couples went and surrounded them. Now neither Emily nor I went up there for one very specific reason. I’m dating Emily with the intention of marrying her. So we are not singles. After the service, someone came to me with a prophetic word over Emily and I. The word was quite discouraging but I know that God isn’t a God full of discouragement. Basically they told me that they believed God told them that I need to be careful not to “hold Emily back” from the things of God. I didn’t think I was but I was like I won’t that okay, I’m not. I went back over to Emily and she asked me what the person had told me. I told Emily I couldn’t tell her, at least not yet. After a while she gave up asking me because she knew I would tell her eventually but that did not mean tonight. We talked about a few other things, then as if prompted by God to say these exact words she said, “I had a great time with you today. If we hadn’t gotten to just sit there and listen to music, or let me rest my head in your shoulder, I think you would be holding me back.” Yes she said holding her back. God was telling me that I wasn’t holding her back and just that I should be careful. He was telling me that I’m not holding her back now. I love it when God reaffirms something in that way. It just shows that God is the God of the universe. I’m exhausted, I’ll recap sunday monday and tuesday ASAP. Later Everyone





Hello…

30 01 2009

So it has been a while folks. I had deleted my blog, or at least privatized it, and I got rid of facebook. I am now returning to both. I realized how much I missed writing a blog post every so often. Just to get those creative juices flowing.

Well the spring semester has started, Emily is back in Brockport, all is well. I love my schedule this semester. I have classes from 8-5 on monday and wednesday, 8-3 on friday, and no classes on tuesdays or thursdays. I love it. On tuesdays and thursdays Emily and I have breakfast together before her class at 9:45. I like being able to hang out with her during the day instead of always at night. Yes I am at school right now, I have a huge break though. I have no classes on monday wednesday and friday from 10-1 which is nice. I get a decent break in the middle of my day. Which I use to hang out with my friends who go to MCC, Sarah and Patrick. Ocassionally I’ll be down in the Engineering Learning Center.

I’m really excited for tonight. The BASIC college group and the CCC youth group are getting together for cornerstone. It is a night of worship and just trying to get closer to God. I’m a little nervous because I’m supposed to be singing tonight. I was sick all last weekend and my voice is still recovering. I guess I need to realize though that I’m not singing to impress my friends. I’m singing up there to worship God.  Later Everyone, Luv ya Emily





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